healthy is one way to live a normal life

I knew there was something wrong with my body,  I hate pain,   I hate this disease. It's makes my life  different  than every girls. I wanna live a normal life ..  I know it's not as severe illness, like cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure, and something  like that, but all of this makes me going mad. 

you should not eat this,..

you should not eat that,

you should not be like this,

you should not be that .. 

oouughhh..

you may call me "Lebay", before you feel what I feel ..
 and the most make me hate this disease is  it hurt my parents too. especially my Mom,. she is the  strongest  mother in the world...  I love her . so much ..  and I though i can't breath without Her.. oh God help me .. all this is beyond.. :'(